Alright, This is probably going to be the last blog about how women have hurt me. Yes, I've once again been hurt by the female specimen. Here's what happened, I was heading to the Science Engineering Library too study for Psychology, Neural science of course (rolls eyes). Okay, I lie, they have nice couches there to study. haha =]
Anyways, there's this really cute chick that I got introduced to from one of my friends at york. So I tried to hook her up with my friend, since my confidence has been pretty low lately. (That's another story that I rather not talk about online) The thing is we're still friends, at least that's what I thought. So I'm walking and I see her...We make I contact...I smile....She...(sigh)........LOOKS AWAY!!! N KEEPS ON TRUCKING!!! The first thing I did was...head back to the gym. I was so angry, I just wanted to forget her. What's worse is, I just realized she only talks to me when she needs something. (Went through some of my facebook messages and wallpost. She doesn't reply to my wall post, when it's just a "hey, how r u? =]")
I know I'm not going to shun her or anything, cause I'm not that kind of person. I'm just going to be me and you know what, the gym is the only girl in my life now.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Hear me...
I just finished watching this Taiwanese movie called Hear Me and what movie. *astonished face* Such a great movie, there is hardly any talking in it because it's about two sisters having to communicate in sign language and a boy that comes in to their life. <- That's me shortening things up so I don't spoil it, I tend to do that. haha
It first made me realize how big the world really is and that there are more then one type of persons. People have disabilities and are different from us, but then I realized, what is it that makes us different? Hearing-impaired people still have to pay bills, take care of themselves, and most importantly they have dreams, just like everyone else. So why do we choose to treat some people differently? Just cause its not the norm doesn't mean that its not right. Maybe hearing-impaired, or any persons with a disability, may see their life as the norm and yours as different. I think it's time people started seeing one another through intellect rather then ability.
I Believe that the only way that we can grow as human-beings is by learning from one another, sharing our existing knowledge and growing together from it.
The truth is, we're all just a little to greedy. We want to stay on top and are scared that once we share with one another, they'll be nothing else to grow from. That's when I come back to the comment that the world is a big place, do you really think you know everyone?
ps. Go watch the movie! It's on youtube, "Hear Me [Movie] 听说 - English Sub [1/11]"
and don't forget, we ALL have dreams, but how many of us follow them? How many of us change them, because they seem to big to be real and a part lives? Never give up on your dream!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3D4WhIxkMk <- Link for the movie =]
It first made me realize how big the world really is and that there are more then one type of persons. People have disabilities and are different from us, but then I realized, what is it that makes us different? Hearing-impaired people still have to pay bills, take care of themselves, and most importantly they have dreams, just like everyone else. So why do we choose to treat some people differently? Just cause its not the norm doesn't mean that its not right. Maybe hearing-impaired, or any persons with a disability, may see their life as the norm and yours as different. I think it's time people started seeing one another through intellect rather then ability.
I Believe that the only way that we can grow as human-beings is by learning from one another, sharing our existing knowledge and growing together from it.
The truth is, we're all just a little to greedy. We want to stay on top and are scared that once we share with one another, they'll be nothing else to grow from. That's when I come back to the comment that the world is a big place, do you really think you know everyone?
ps. Go watch the movie! It's on youtube, "Hear Me [Movie] 听说 - English Sub [1/11]"
and don't forget, we ALL have dreams, but how many of us follow them? How many of us change them, because they seem to big to be real and a part lives? Never give up on your dream!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3D4WhIxkMk <- Link for the movie =]
Friday, November 13, 2009
Pen with paper...
Never knew that I had the courage to climb out of the ignorance in me...
so I picked up the pen and just wrote, and watched the troubles flow so freely...
it's amazing how a line can take away the pain so easily...
and yet I wish I could go back to being held so tightly...
being apart of the crowd, indite me...
I guess that's just me, trying to enlighten thy...
cause I wish they knew what it was like to be me...=\
I just want to take this time to say, I wish I still had my old journal. I wish I could keep writing in it and just finish off what I started. It made me humble, sane, whatever you want to call it. GET YOURSELF A JOURNAL!
so I picked up the pen and just wrote, and watched the troubles flow so freely...
it's amazing how a line can take away the pain so easily...
and yet I wish I could go back to being held so tightly...
being apart of the crowd, indite me...
I guess that's just me, trying to enlighten thy...
cause I wish they knew what it was like to be me...=\
I just want to take this time to say, I wish I still had my old journal. I wish I could keep writing in it and just finish off what I started. It made me humble, sane, whatever you want to call it. GET YOURSELF A JOURNAL!
Friday, November 6, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Heart and Mind...& Her ?
If reading is the heart of learning,
then writing is my mind giving.
I don't know, just felt like saying that, cause I stroll by this school board and it says, "Reading is the heart of learning." So I thought about other fundamentals and related them to human anatomy. Pretty much fail, so I'm not going to put them up. lol haha =P
I also wanted to say that, I'm tired of not knowing what to do. I think I'm going to finally quit. Well technically I never even started...
then writing is my mind giving.
I don't know, just felt like saying that, cause I stroll by this school board and it says, "Reading is the heart of learning." So I thought about other fundamentals and related them to human anatomy. Pretty much fail, so I'm not going to put them up. lol haha =P
I also wanted to say that, I'm tired of not knowing what to do. I think I'm going to finally quit. Well technically I never even started...
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Not one to Interfere...
Damn, who knew so much can happen at one party.
She wishes she was back with me, but has a man.
I wish I could forget her, cause she has a man.
But I can tell you one thing, that night it felt like i was her man.
Push her away, that was my game plan,
But as soon as she got closer, I couldn't even remember my name, dang!
Now what do I do, do I pursue?
Nahh, my mind ain't heavy, my heart maybe,
So I'm holding back, before I call her my baby.
Cause I rather not come in between, and have her hate me.
Guess I just let her go, I've done it before,
But why does it hurt soo much more?
Maybe cause I'm that man, behind her closed door.
She wishes she was back with me, but has a man.
I wish I could forget her, cause she has a man.
But I can tell you one thing, that night it felt like i was her man.
Push her away, that was my game plan,
But as soon as she got closer, I couldn't even remember my name, dang!
Now what do I do, do I pursue?
Nahh, my mind ain't heavy, my heart maybe,
So I'm holding back, before I call her my baby.
Cause I rather not come in between, and have her hate me.
Guess I just let her go, I've done it before,
But why does it hurt soo much more?
Maybe cause I'm that man, behind her closed door.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Forgive and Forget...
There is this song that is stuck in my head, Prayer by Kid Cudi. The lyrics are some what deep, it's typical Cudi stuff. The thing is this song captures everything that has been going through my head.
I'll talk about the things I've been thinking about and not linking them to the song because I rather let the reader have their own epiphanies. =]
So basically, a couple of days ago I was at school waiting for a friend to finish his last class, and that's when I saw her. I had forgotten about her, since I hadn't seen her in a while. I realized something that day, I wasn't mad at her anymore, I actually missed seeing her pale but elevating smile.
After this realization, I was sitting on the bus just thinking about the things I missed and one was hugging her. I thought about how i felt after receiving a hug. The most obvious human emotion would be happiness, and I elaborated more to myself. (Yes I that's what an hour and 45 min do to you on the bus.-__-*) What does happiness mean? We all have our own perceptions of things, and feel things differently, well generally we are ALL different. So what I remember feeling was warm; I also felt as if I had someone to help support me, just by their arms being wrapping around my body; I felt as if this person knew how I felt because when I saw them, the worries of the world were just a blurry image compared to her vibrant aura. While reminiscing about the not so lonely and depressing days, I realized something...when was the last time I hugged someone close to me?...When did I hug my own parents?....and Do they feel how I feel when I'm not hugged? =[
After dwelling in the realization that human emotion is all the same, I felt like balling because I haven't hugged or given any sort of positive emotions to my parents these days. I imagined how difficult their lives are and how me not showing them the time and positive attitude is making it worse, because contrary to popular believe, our parents still love us even if we do things that are frowned upon. That's why I strongly suggest to my friends and others, please don't let little things bring you down, because it'll take your surroundings down too. =[
I'll talk about the things I've been thinking about and not linking them to the song because I rather let the reader have their own epiphanies. =]
So basically, a couple of days ago I was at school waiting for a friend to finish his last class, and that's when I saw her. I had forgotten about her, since I hadn't seen her in a while. I realized something that day, I wasn't mad at her anymore, I actually missed seeing her pale but elevating smile.
I found this online and thought that it's a great quote for people going through some heart aches.
After this realization, I was sitting on the bus just thinking about the things I missed and one was hugging her. I thought about how i felt after receiving a hug. The most obvious human emotion would be happiness, and I elaborated more to myself. (Yes I that's what an hour and 45 min do to you on the bus.-__-*) What does happiness mean? We all have our own perceptions of things, and feel things differently, well generally we are ALL different. So what I remember feeling was warm; I also felt as if I had someone to help support me, just by their arms being wrapping around my body; I felt as if this person knew how I felt because when I saw them, the worries of the world were just a blurry image compared to her vibrant aura. While reminiscing about the not so lonely and depressing days, I realized something...when was the last time I hugged someone close to me?...When did I hug my own parents?....and Do they feel how I feel when I'm not hugged? =[
After dwelling in the realization that human emotion is all the same, I felt like balling because I haven't hugged or given any sort of positive emotions to my parents these days. I imagined how difficult their lives are and how me not showing them the time and positive attitude is making it worse, because contrary to popular believe, our parents still love us even if we do things that are frowned upon. That's why I strongly suggest to my friends and others, please don't let little things bring you down, because it'll take your surroundings down too. =[
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